“The greatest thing you will ever learn is to love and and be loved in return” :)

Today my fake plants died because I did not pretend to water them -.-

Hey Sara,
You are one of the best people I know, the one I can count on to help me get through something even after being an asshole. I said it before an I know you hate it but I’m sorry. I think your the best kind of person among the rest of us you stand out. I read the posts and well keep your head up and your eye on the horizon. Just thought I would say it.

Ok the other day I bought this girl whom I like, a pearl necklace. Granted I know you can’t buy love but you can open some doors. The thing I’s though I gave it to her and she loved it, yet she can’t date anyone one. So I guess I can’t help but feel a little let down but whatever here’s to the night. A ballad of sorts, at this point tomorrow will come soon. A mind set in confusion, distress, and utmost disappointment . But no man can run forever from
An unrelenting truth. A not so secret, secret I suppose. Nothing I’s wasted, nothing I’s solved by going away. I’ll just keep going back until there I’s no were to go.

Look at me, and tell me what you see, what do I have for you anyway. I’m a lost cause I’m a bomb waiting to explode. I never wanted to hurt you, I never wanted any of this I’m just a failure. But I see now I can’t fix it even though I tried. So that I’s all I have to say.

I don’t know, do you love me hate me, tell me I’m a man, I can take it. I’m tired of life :/ ugh just shoot me

Surly I’m not the best, I’m tired of felling lost, get the shot gun. I’m going cobain, in my darkest moment. I’m on fire my mind is lost. Take my mind and throw it around. This is my moment to explode. All the lies are gone I’ve completed my task. My emptyness will not go. The stars express my emotions. They realate my story and to you they will tell you. My depression will not let me go. The demon of my mind playing the nightmare of yesterday over and over.and I can’t bare another moment lost.

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“I wish I was special but I’m a creep I’m a weirdo what the hell am I doing here? I don’t belong here… whatever makes you happy whatever you want” ill leave anyway no words could describe today fuck you dad I hope you fall in a pit of spiders and dynamite and explode. Uggh I saved my friends relationship today, trying to convince my step mom to go to corpus so I can see Sara. But then my dad says that if I want to go I have to work 40 hours when we get back. Well it’s worth it.

Oh pandora how do I love you! You play all those sweet melodies and set my soul on fire thank you for keeping me sain, thank you my Internet radio friend. All my favorite things you know awe! My sweet pandora radio love you except your god damn commercials but other then that your cool!